EPISODE 9 - DISSOLVING THE BLOCKS TO OUR JOY BLISS & ABUNDANCE

‍As the wild feminine awakens to receive the divine masculine once again, we are being called to alchemise our shadows of resistance to joy.

In this episode I explore the wild feminine, the divine masculine, and how we navigate both through the path of sacred embodiment.

We've just passed the new moon in Taurus — ruled by Venus — which is calling us to ground our desires, our pleasure, our joy, and our abundance.

However, to truly receive all of that, we first have to move through the layers of belief systems, conditioning, fear, and scarcity that block its expression — right down into our very DNA.

I share how trauma — carried through the mitochondrial DNA of the feminine lineage — braces around our blueprint like a carbon cage, blocking our epigenetic expression and keeping us locked in survival patterns.

For women, this sits deeply within the womb, the menstrual cycle, and the hormones.

For men, I see it held in the gut and the solar plexus.

And the good news is, is that It can be alchemised.🌟

I talk about conscious rage — the fire rising in the feminine as she claws herself out of suppression — and why honouring that anger, rather than fearing it, is one of the most powerful acts of self-love we can offer ourselves.

I explore how liver and heart energy are connected to betrayal, and why the back of the heart can hold us back from fully receiving love, joy, and connection.

I also share a deeply personal experience from a recent festival — a beautiful unravelling through connection, tantra, rose, cacao, and sound — where an ancestral witch wound surfaced from the back of my heart.

Through compassion, forgiveness, and a Ho'oponopono prayer, she was set free, and I felt my own heart begin to open further.

We also explore the creatrix —the intelligence of the ovum, the wisdom encoded in the womb — and how this innate, body-held knowing goes far beyond the mind. From the vagus nerve to the myofascial tissue, to the plasma that carries light into matter, your body already holds everything it needs to heal and remember.

I finish with a simple but powerful practice — a mantra and a toothbrush — that you can use every single day to begin building new neural pathways from the inside out. Because sometimes the smallest shift is the one that changes everything.

Enjoy

Love Gemma

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Welcome, beautiful souls, to Diary of a Sleeping Goddess.
In this episode I really want to explore the Wild Feminine, the Divine Masculine, and how we navigate both of these through embodiment, ultimately.
We've just come through the new moon in Taurus, led by Venus, and it's really about grounding our desires — grounding the pleasure, the joy, the bliss, the abundance — all of that which is actually our truth. However, we need to get through all our belief systems, our patterning, our conditioning, our scarcity, our protection, our fear, our disconnection — all of that which runs through all of us, through our mental energy, our emotions, and right down into our physical form, into our actual DNA. It blocks it from expressing itself in that way.
So, as I'm sitting with that right now — the DNA, and the trauma that comes through the feminine lineage — here's how I see this. Our DNA itself, our pure DNA, our blueprint, is exactly as it needs to be. There is nothing wrong with that part of the DNA. In fact, it has everything encoded that we already need, and will ever need.
What we do have, though, is trauma running along it like a brace — like carbon bracing around the DNA. What I've been shown is that there are these nine what were thought to be dormant genes that are actually not dormant at all. They are all about how they play the DNA — how they get the DNA to express itself. It's epigenetic expression.
For me, it feels like the keys of an old flute. It feels as though they are blocked — they stick, they're not flowing, they're not easily moving, they're not finding their harmony. They are dysregulated.
And so, trauma — which is proven to come through the mitochondrial DNA, through the feminine line — for women, really sits within the womb, within our menstrual health, within our hormones. The mitochondria is fundamental to everything. It is life. It gives us life. It gives us the energy to be present, really. And there is light within that mitochondria, which I'm sure I'll come back to at some point.
So you may well find with this episode that you just take little chunks from it, and that's perfectly fine, because I will be weaving in different aspects of what has been shown to me.
With trauma, with mitochondria, with the feminine lineage — which men absorb as well, though I see it more in the gut for men, in the solar plexus. Often, if there is only one male in a family, they are lumbered with this from a generational perspective. But they can heal it. They may often have digestive issues, for instance. They can shift and move this, but we need to come into our feminine energy. We need to come into the consciousness that is the feminine — which has ultimately been suppressed, oppressed, abused, and shut down.
Women will feel that. They have experienced it. We will feel it very deeply in our blood, in our bones.
And as this wild feminine is rising — she has risen in many forms. I have seen her over the last few years. She is rising up as what might look like the scorned woman. Blood, bones, fire, rage. She is rising, and I've done a lot of work with this — with that conscious rage. She is clawing herself out of the earth, bloodied nails and everything, because she will not be held down any longer.
And it is that force — that energy that you might want to call ugly — but I call it beautiful, because it comes from a deep, deep seat of powerful self-love.
A lot of women struggle with anger, struggle with being able to express that consciousness — because we have been suppressed. It has been deemed acceptable for men to be angry, and women to be emotional, because they're 'weak.' And you've just got to listen to the patriarchal conditioning that we are all playing underneath and having to move through.
Women have not necessarily been comfortable with anger, especially if it's being expressed towards them, because then comes the whole judgement of that anger. Whereas if you can hold consciousness for rage, for anger — for yourself in that present moment, observing yourself, observing your anger — that part of yourself is actually saying: I deserve better. I am equal. I will not tolerate this. I am going to stand my ground. I am going to claim my space. And I will not let anything stop that. That is powerful. It is beautiful, even if we think it isn't pretty.
This can come up as brain fog, as hot flushes, as mood swings. This is what perimenopause and menopause are — this shift into the wise woman. She is calling you to find who you truly, truly are.
And conscious rage is fundamental to that. I'm recording this within liver time, within the spring, within May — we're also gently shifting towards summer, into June, where the energy moves into the heart. So, liver and heart are connected right now, and that is where betrayal sits.
The liver holds anger, rage, fire. When it connects into the heart and we're not conscious of it, it can be blazing. And deeper still, at the back of the heart, is a suppressed, simmering rage of betrayal. A sense of: I have been betrayed. I have been hurt. And yet it can't quite express itself.
The back of the heart is observing everything. It is watching and checking: can I trust anything? Can I trust anyone? And it will hold you back. It will hold your heart back from fully opening and expressing itself, and from receiving — love, joy, and bliss.
Which I'll explain in a moment through what I processed in the last five days.
And so, to receive what has been shown for this new moon in Taurus — the bliss, the abundance, the beauty — we have to go through the shadow, that real part of ourselves, to ultimately enable ourselves to receive. To receive the masculine. And that includes the masculine that is already within you.
The masculine part within you is about being seen. It is about giving presence and holding space for the feminine to be seen, whereas so many of us are in our masculine energy of doing, and protecting, because we are living in survival mode.
And so, actually, when we are here as souls, as beings, through embodiment — we are meant, if we choose, to alchemise and release ourselves from these survival patterns and the belief in separation. This illusion that we are separated from ourselves, from our bodies, from the heart of ourselves, from the heart of Source, and from each other.
Because there is so much fear being lived right now, and it is literally coming up to the surface to be seen. Which can keep us locked in fear — because we can see it and feel it and stay in it. Or we can recognise that the reason it's so visible right now is because the light of love, of unity, of truth is rising. Mother Earth is raising her frequency, opening her heart, clearing and detoxing, and showing everyone what isn't in alignment with their truth.
That new moon was also about bringing in the masculine — the divine masculine, the pure masculine. The one who cherishes and loves and adores. Who desires to give pleasure and joy, who holds no entitlement, who literally adores the feminine and understands that she is what gives life. He desires to give her joy, to hold her, to enable her to be her true full self. Think of the rose — the strong stem that enables the rose to fully blossom. It doesn't want a shrunken violet. It desires to witness the beauty and exquisiteness that is the feminine.
And so, to do that, it's not so much about seeking a man to do that for us. It's also about men doing the work — to enable women to feel safe, to regulate their nervous systems, to look at their beliefs and attachments and conditioning. For men to understand self-authority, to take responsibility, to find safety within themselves, and to be able to manage and harvest their sexual energy, bringing it up from the root into the heart.
Through that mastery, a woman can feel safe. She can read his heart, read his energy through the skin and the nervous system — it's the same thing, somatics. The more she is embodied in her body, the more she can feel it. She doesn't have to think about it. She can feel it, and know through her body what her truth is. She can know whether she is safe, whether she is held, whether she is safe to explore her full self — her full sensuality, her full power. And then, as the woman breathes masculine energy from the heart and brings it down into her womb, her yoni — that is where union can become. That is where the portal opens. That is the gateway of life, and the creatrix.
And I have been shown over the last few days that the creatrix is really awakening. Through rose blessings at a beautiful festival, I was shown the veins of a bee wing, a grapefruit, a snake cobra — two cobras forming the shape of swans with their heads together, that vision of love, of heart — and dragonflies. I've been shown how the creatrix holds the DNA, the potential of everything, of life, and how everything is connected.
We talk about how closely related pigs are to us from a chromosomal perspective — but actually we are even more closely related to the dragonfly. It comes down to the fact that we have this encodement of everything and the potential of everything. But it depends on how it chooses to express itself. Which brings me to: what is the stimuli that creates that expression?
Just pausing on that for a moment, because it's something that just came through.
What chooses for us to grow as a human, and something else to grow as a dragonfly, or a grapefruit? For me, the wisdom that is the light that births us is the creatrix. She is the mother of all. And it is the coherence, the wisdom birthed from that light, from the ovum — the moment the ovum chooses to spark.
It's not survival of the fittest, with sperm racing to bite their way through. Can you see the stories and the patriarchal conditioning that we have all been told, men and women alike? It has nothing to do with that. It has to do with the ovum reading the frequency of that sperm. Are you aligned to me? And she only allows the right one in — or two, if you're having twins.
That is the feminine. Just as I was describing a woman reading a man's body and his nervous system — are you in alignment for me to receive you? — it comes right down to the very beginning of our birth. How our ovum would have read that and understood it.
And so this intelligence, this wisdom, goes beyond our minds. It is inherent, innate in our bodies. And the work that I do — whether through meditation or through hands-on work — is all about tuning into that vital wisdom. That wisdom that goes beyond the mind and is already living in our bodies. It's the light, the water, the consciousness that carries the light, the plasma, the cerebrospinal fluid. You can see how it gets deeper and deeper into physical form — the myofascial, the connective tissue, the piezoelectricity, the holding of it all together, enabling the presence of light into matter.
I've really gone into a beautiful world right now.
And so, really understanding that beauty and that miracle that you are. When you truly feel it in your body, you allow the mind to start to dissolve — to let go of those patterns, those belief systems, that neuroplasticity created in fear and separation. And then gradually, through feeling it deep in your body — knowing that it's your truth, even if the mind can't comprehend it — you begin to build from that place. You build new neuroplasticity from love, from gratitude, from joy, from connection. The understanding comes later. Acceptance is the first path, and then embodiment. Once you've embodied it, the understanding comes.
It's like the vagus nerve — 80% of its signals actually travel from the body up to the mind, not the other way around. And so this is all about sacred conscious embodiment. Allowing yourself to receive from your heart, working from the purest and highest light into your body — into the coherence that is your body, that is the blueprint of your body. You are awakening. You are remembering. You are tuning your DNA, waking it up.
You are breaking down, through the fire and the alchemy that is rage, the understanding that you will no longer play the victim, no longer play the martyr. And that fire and that rage, held in the heart, will take that carbon-based DNA and make it the diamond that you are.
Carbon, under enormous compression and heat, stays pure to itself — and from that, it becomes a diamond. The most pure form. This is what we are doing with our DNA. This is what we are doing through consciousness, through connection to our bodies.
So, going back to my experience over the last few days. I attended a beautiful festival — a heart-opening soul revolution — and I'm so grateful for it. The first few days were, honestly, challenging because I don't particularly enjoy camping. I like a proper toilet, a shower, the ability to put the kettle on for a cup of tea. And that was really interesting in itself, because this whole process — the expansion and contraction of healing — was showing me immediately. What is my safety? What is my natural bolt hole? And how comfortable am I with stretching my comfort zone?
I went there specifically because I had to put my big girl's pants on and go on my own. I knew I had to do it. I had realised I had shrunk — my comfort zone had contracted — and so I thought: I need to do this. I did push myself, with compassion and self-awareness, knowing I needed to stretch, because if I want the expansion I'm seeking, I need to allow my whole nervous system to be able to reach new things, new people, new connections.
Yes, it challenged me. I thought 'I'm going home tomorrow' on repeat for the first couple of days. And then on the second or third day I thought: actually, no. I'm okay. This is alright. I'm meeting lovely people. I'm beginning to ground myself, to find my comfort in myself.
What came through after a beautiful, flowing conversation with someone — no expectations, just sitting by the tent, sharing a cup of tea — was this. I was saying to her that I had this pain at the back of my heart. I've often felt a restriction there, as though something is lodged there.
Just before that conversation, I'd had a treatment with beautiful oil poured on my forehead, during which I could see cobras and different signs emerging. The whole day had been leading me up to that point — and that is what you have to really recognise. Everything is in alignment. You just have to see it, honour it, recognise it. And that enables your trust and belief in yourself, and in everything that is working for you, not against you.
I had had a truly beautiful day leading up to that moment — connections, the treatment, rose, cacao drops. It was all calling me to soften and to open my heart. Before that, I'd also attended a Tantra workshop, all about connection — the beautiful awkwardness of connecting with a complete stranger, simply through looking into their eyes, placing hands on each other's hearts, and allowing yourself to be held. To soften into being supported.
I could feel my resistance through that process. And this is the beauty of this work — when you simply become conscious of yourself. Conscious of your patterning, your beliefs, your conditioning. Conscious of what your body is trying to show you.
What it showed me was: am I safe to be held? The resistance to being held — am I safe to soften into this? Is this unconditional love that I'm being held in? One part of what came up was a fear of being seen. I could feel it in the middle of my heart, in an etheric part of me — a fear of being seen.
Because my desire is to be seen. The desire for me and for my work, and for everything that I'm doing, is a desire to be seen, to be witnessed, to be held, to be honoured. That is the feminine — that is her true desire. She is the undercurrent. This is why Sophia birthed the masculine: so she could be seen, so she could be observed. The masculine is the observer. And this is about bringing in that union to enable the feminine to be finally seen.
And then it showed me my resistance to that. Within my heart, in this etheric part, was a part going: but I'm afraid of being seen. Because of what someone will see. And I couldn't quite access it. I couldn't get to it. What is it, exactly, that you are afraid will be seen? I couldn't reach it.
I was left sitting with that. Later, having my cup of tea, sharing that experience, just being in a quiet and gentle darkness, present with the earth — I suddenly felt this energy coming out from the back of my heart. Like a witch. Really dark energy — that kind of energy you imagine on a broomstick. And the beautiful soul I was with was just about to name it herself.
Of course, you doubt yourself. When you start seeing things you don't know whether it's real or imagination, but then again — who knows what is what? As the creator and the observer, what is real? And so this came up and over me.
I've done a lot of entity work, so I don't drop into fear around any of this. Fear just creates more fear. Whereas if you love, observe, and hold compassion for the space — that is the great healing shift: from fear to love, to observation and compassion.
I could see her — a scorned woman. That whole dark witch energy: creating curses, spells, so much anger and grief. We talk about the witch wound, don't we — the suppression of the feminine, the burning, all the horror of that. But there is also the shadow of the witch wound: how we women would have responded to that. The scorn, the hate, the betrayal, the rage. Her form of protection had been to become the perpetrator. The victim-martyr-perpetrator triangle.
And she showed me that.
When I see entities, when I see darkness — they have forgotten that they were light once. And so coming in with compassion is fundamental. You cannot fight them, because they return with more fear. But if you hold space and compassion, with Kuan Yin coming in strongly for me in this work — she calls it out, sees it, Kuan Yin comes in, holds compassion — and calls them to remember that they were light once. That under all the darkness and the hate and the betrayal, their identity had become this darkness, but they were actually light. And because of their actions, they believed they were no longer worthy of that light. It becomes perpetual motion.
When you hold compassion and remind them that they were light, that there is forgiveness, that there is love — they melt. They dissolve all the patterns and the conditioning and the protection, and they come back to light. I have seen many beautiful entities so deeply grateful to be returned to the light — even the harshest-looking ones. That is why you do not give in to fear.
And then through that dissolving, I saw Kuan Yin, Mother Mary, and Kali holding her. And I could see — beneath the darkness — an abused woman. Deeply, terribly abused. Whether she died from it I wasn't sure at first, but yes, she had. And whether this was ancestral — yes, it was. So it had happened deeply, generationally.
She had been locked into that hate and that betrayal. This is the betrayal energy — the back of the heart, the liver, the heart. This is what we are moving through as we transition into this season.
Through that process, she was — like someone in the throes of giving birth — rocking backwards and forwards, releasing all of this pain, this hate, this rage, this sadness, this grief. Everything that had been held under that. And I can feel the emotion beneath all of that even now.
The next day, during a beautiful sound bath, as I connected back into my body, it began to move. I could see her there in her light — this beautiful goddess energy, this beautiful woman in a white robe. Just peace. And deeply, deeply grateful to have been set free from her pain.
There was a sense of guilt coming back towards me — she had felt so guilty about having blocked me from receiving joy. Because of this protective barrier that had been around my heart, which had prevented me from fully connecting in relationships — a shield that I can also relate to my childhood trauma. It goes even deeper than that. She had held it there like a shield to protect my heart. But equally, it had blocked me from receiving joy.
I allowed the emotions to come forward. I allowed the heart to soften and open — like the lagoon that it is — enabling us to open, to receive, to connect to it all. The heart has the capacity for all of that observation, with space, with presence. And then it releases. The ocean comes in and goes out. No attachment. That is the ability the heart has — to expand and hold all of that.
There were tears. There was grief — grief of relationships gone, or going, because of this pattern of protection that had been blocking the joy. Grief of not having been able to experience the joy more fully. And then an exchange: I don't want you to feel guilty, because guilt isn't a good energy from which to act. Guilt keeps you staying in that vibration.
And so we did a Ho'oponopono prayer. We exchanged forgiveness. And through forgiveness comes peace. A peace with an embodied wisdom to it, an insight — a processing of the whole rainbow of emotions. Discernment. Rage. Anger. Grief. Joy. What you receive. What you release. And such intelligence in that. This is why I call it gold. This is why I created Daughters of the Golden Rose — it is all about how we tune into all of this. How, through the power of alchemy, we set ourselves free. It becomes our inner gold.
And like our immune system — once it has encountered a virus, it holds that innate wisdom through its T cells and B cells. When it encounters the same thing again, it barely registers it, because it already knows. This is a resonance, a frequency, an intelligence. We are raising this emotional intelligence and consciousness — as a soul, as a human — to recognise: I will not fall into that pit. I can alchemise the shadow. It becomes my innate wisdom. I don't drop into that inner amnesia. I get it. I've been there. And I know the way through.
And this is the empowerment we are stepping into. I see golden steps of a pyramid, and the beautiful sisters and the priestesses — Kuan Yin, Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary — who have embodied this, and who are here to walk with us to this point. To become the foundations of this new golden age. They are like a bridge, and we are the embodiment of them. Through what they have done, we are able to move forwards. They are not disappearing — we carry them with us through this embodied wisdom, forward to the new generation, the new era we are seeking to create.
Women are going to be doing that — whether we're talking about birthing children, or healing our wombs, or birthing projects. It may well be that the womb healing you do enables the powerful souls who are coming forward to arrive without the burden of generational trauma. They are here to create new, to make waves from the very beginning — not to spend forty years trying to work it all out first.
I believe that's why Mother Mary did such deep womb work — to become the 'virgin' in the truest sense. Not through abstinence, but through a pure womb. To enable Yeshua's soul to come through without having to carry generational patterns. Joseph was very active in that process too, by the way.
And for those of us who have perhaps already had children, or who are in a different chapter of life — we are birthing communities, new ways of living. And I imagine that's why you are listening to this: there is something you fundamentally recognise as your purpose, something you truly want to bring into the world. We are birthing that through community, through collaboration, through alignment.
Which also means moving through the comparison, the competition, the setting of women against women — because, honestly, that is part of how our power was fractured in the first place. Women hold the most extraordinary capacity for this frequency. We can show compassion in the deepest way. The womb is designed to absorb, to alchemise, to purify, to take the deepest and darkest emotions and move them back into gold. We are the sorceresses, the alchemists. But we have forgotten that. And so instead we have absorbed, and absorbed, and absorbed, and forgotten that we had the power to alchemise it.
Our menstrual health, our hormones, all of it is affected when we forget the power of alchemy we hold. This is why all of my work is rooted in heart and purity, and in connection to that.
And so this experience has really shown me the journey we need to take — to enable us to be truly seen, to be honoured, to be equal, to be recognised, to be our full selves. We need the Divine Masculine. And we need to look at all those wounds where we have pushed it away.
It's interesting that we are seeing so much of its shadow in the outer world right now. But the press wants to keep you looped in fear — in victim energy, in division, whether by race, gender, religion. It constantly pushes separation, because when we realise we are one, when we are united, we are extraordinarily powerful.
And so we have to be discerning about where we give our mental energy. We are the creator and the observer. We have to be conscious about what we open into, what we give our attention and energy to — whether it's the phone, social media, or whatever it might be. And to know: you are not your thoughts, unless you choose them to be. You are love, joy, and peace. That is your truth. Anything else isn't. But you have to create that conscious pattern breaker — that space, that breath, that moment of stillness and connection to your body, to your heart, to the earth — and ask: is this my truth?
And then you become the curious observer. You notice what comes up and you choose not to follow it down into the vortex of self-sabotage. You choose love. You choose joy. You choose peace.
The affirmation I use when I feel this happening is:
I choose love. I choose joy. I choose peace.
I come to my heart. I am worthy of love. I am worthy of joy. I am worthy of peace.
I am love. I am joy. I am peace.
I bring this into my heart, into my womb, into my whole body, into my feet. And I repeat it as a mantra. Within five minutes you can feel a shift of perspective. You have managed to pull yourself out of that whirlpool. It is genuinely powerful when you start to feel your mind shift. Put your hands on your heart, recite those words, and that is enough to create a moment of conscious space and to choose something different. You could do that every day, even whilst brushing your teeth.
Here's a little trick: bring your toothbrush into your non-dominant hand. As soon as you do that, you shift from subconscious automatic pilot to conscious awareness — because your brain notices that something is different. And then, in that moment of consciousness, you bring in the affirmations. You build new neural pathways. You create neuroplasticity from a place of what you actually desire.
If you do that every single day, just for a few minutes — you are making those shifts. And often, to make changes, we feel so overwhelmed that we do nothing at all. But this? Brushing your teeth with the other hand and saying a few words — that is achievable. It is powerful. It is like the little lever on old railway tracks — it shifts things by a single degree. The tracks don't look wildly different yet, but you've shifted. You've created a pattern breaker. You're building new pathways.
And of course there will be times you fall back into old ways. That's when compassion is everything. Just notice it. Be curious. Hold yourself with love. Because this journey of self-awareness, self-authority, discovering your boundaries — recognising, perhaps for the first time, that you've been a people-pleaser and you're exhausted — that is the most beautiful journey you begin. You let the anger come up. It is saying: I deserve better. And yes, you do. But you don't stay in the fire. Because a forest cannot regrow if you burn everything down continuously.
You have to find your grace as well. That embodied fire and water — like the light I saw in Sedona, which is where so much of this began for me. The light that flows and gently trickles and sparkles through water. The plasma that is your body is the carrier of this light, this consciousness. Yes, you need the fire. Yes, you need to awaken that spirit. But we cannot stay only in that energy. It is the embodiment of all the elements — earth, water, fire, spirit, metal — all coming together.
And that has been my journey. Quite a long share, but hopefully you can feel that weaving of where you may well be experiencing something similar for yourself.
Your body, your energy, the creatrix, the flow — all of it is calling you to step into your joy, into abundance, into bliss, into pleasure. And to do that, we have to look honestly at everything that stops us. So we need to do our shadow work. And not fear it.
The full moon before this, in Scorpio, the Black Madonna came in to lead us through. And in the meditation — beautifully — it wasn't the mind doing the work. It was the body. You allowed the body's intelligence to heal what needed healing in those dark shadows, because if the mind gets involved it simply loops. So the invitation was: stay in peace and love, trust your body to do this work in the unconscious, and don't get attached to what it shows you.
And so each new moon and full moon is showing us our little stages and steps back towards our true higher selves. Now we have a full moon coming in Sagittarius — all about how we step into our leadership, how we bring our purpose into the world. And again, it will show us what we need to release in order to do that.
That part of me that didn't want to be seen — that etheric scorned woman carrying hate, betrayal, and abuse — has enabled me to open my heart more. It is petal upon petal. I'm not saying it's done. I know there is still more to move. Today, for instance, my left shoulder suddenly spasmed during yoga — all around the heart, the gallbladder area — and I tuned in and said: what do you need to show me right now? And it was that little child within, asking: am I safe? Can I come out now? Can I be seen? Can I trust?
And I just held that space and said: I believe so. I haven't got all the answers for you. But what came through from a place of faith and trust was this:
The desire for it to be okay is far greater than the fear that it will not be.
And that is the shift. That desire — for it to be okay, for change, for expansion — becomes a more powerful force than the fear that wants to keep you contracted.
I completely understand that this will land differently for each of you. We will experience this in our own ways. The energy of it is similar, but how we receive it, how we process and digest it, how we act on it — that will be unique to each of us.
If this has resonated with you — and I suspect if you're still listening, it has — you are very welcome to come and join the Daughters of the Golden Rose Telegram group. I'll drop the link in the comments. There is also the Daughters of the Golden Rose Container, which is a 13-week programme, self-paced, and yours for life. One meditation each week — and what's beautiful is that the same meditation can create different experiences each time you return to it. It keeps unlocking a new layer, giving you what you need at exactly the right time. Through the heart, working into the whole — everything that is, that has been, that is yet to come. You will connect to what you need, when you need it. And included in that is a year's membership to the Infinity Health Hub, to support you through each new moon and full moon as well.
Thank you so much for listening, beautiful souls. Sending you lots of love and compassion.
If there's one thing you can do today — take a moment for yourself. Just breathe. Give yourself a hug. Know that you are okay.
Allow the desire for it to be okay to be greater than the fear that it isn't.
Lots of love.

FREEDOM DECLARATION

Freedom feels like peace. A calm within my heart.

A softening. A quietening.

A grief of relief.

A releasing that pours from me, from my soul.

That holding of fear finally breaks.

That belief of separation and loneliness felt to my core, and nervous system embrace, crumbles.

My patterning falls.

As I am met by the ground of my truth.

The love that is Earth, of life, that flows within my veins.

The wisdom that is my soul unites. Holding me in an embrace. And transitioning in my softened, open heart.

There I rest. To heal. To calibrate.

As all illusions dissolve, the veil of my mind lifts.

The heaviness in my heart, body, and hips release.

I'm lighter. Joy lifts me.

I trust that I am safe. I am supported. And I am free.

Curiosity becomes my compass.

Trust and connection the innate wisdom within becomes my map and navigation.

AND SO IT IS

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Mental Clarity through Heart Conscious Grounding - Guided Meditation recorded on the Full Moon in Gemini

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**Return to Innocence**

Soul Repatriation, another level of self consolidation
*Do you keep seeing number patterns of 21:12 12:21 12:12?*
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